Leave Me Alone

You know what I'd like? A day of being single. No, not so I can date again. So I can do nothing again. I'd just like one day of being lazy. Or not even lazy, just not having to answer to someone all day. And by answer to someone I mean my 4 year old. Both kids want me non-stop 24/7. But he requires so much of me lately and the past few days it's kind of pushed me a bit over the edge.

Now in both our defense, we've been cooped up in the house for 5 days. So the neediness is off the charts at this point. But even on a good day I'm just WORN OUT by the end of the day. It goes without saying that I love this little boy with my whole heart and soul. He's so inquisitive and clever and just wants to talk and play all day. For that I am truly blessed; my head never hits the pillow at night without my saying a prayer of thanks for both my amazing, healthy little ones. However, the past few weeks of sickness, not enough sleep, my aunt's death, winter blues, etc., have just left me feeling like I need to replenish myself.

I feel like my soul needs a vitamin. The only way I know how to get out of this kind of funk is some time to myself. Doing nothing. I am craving it right now. I just want the kind of day where I sleep late, lounge around the house in my pajamas and watch mindless Lifetime movies. Throw in a hot bath and curling up with a good book and I'm in heaven.

Since that is just so not going to happen, for now my alone time is going to have to consist of a solo trip to the grocery store with my iPod. I'll pick up some vitamins and a good book maybe. And I'll take the long way home.